poem #4

written: jan. 9, 2010
title: none

" im hanging,
my legs are frantically kicking,
my heart is beating 1,000 mphs,
my arms are sore,
my hands are cramping,
and my fingers are swollen and purple.
i'm yelling. i'm screaming.
i wana call your name but i'm afraid you want to come.
i want you to be the one to save me, but your too busy.
you've moved on.
i'm crying. i'm sweating.
while i'm hanging i cant help but think about that one thing.
that one thing is tattooed onto my heart.
i don't wana be apart.
please. come.please, before the pain starts.
i want your hand to be there to pull me up. i want your arms to be the ones i go to.
i only feel secure when im in your strong grip. i miss your hugs.
i. miss. you."

OK, i know what your probably thinking. "dude! thats deeeepressssing!!" yeah! yeah! i know! haha while i'm typing this i can't believe what i was thinking! :p i don't even remember why i wrote this. well, i lied. i do know WHY. lets just put it this way....i'm a teenage girl, who HAD a boyfriend, then i moved. but i'm all better now! :) i am happy now! hahaha "its all good!"