Monday, December 27, 2010

Poem # 18

Written: 12-27-10
title: "Summer Winds"


"warm. hot. burning.
sidewalks steaming, ice cream churning.
pools are overflowing with splashing kids, and fans are using up all the electricity.
air conditioning never felt so good.
shorts. tanks tops. swim suits.
pool parties scheduled back to back, homework is the #1 lack,
all fun and games all day long,
movies, malls, guys and girls,
some heads start to frizz,
camps are running rampant.
late night sleepovers, waking up at 2pm.
church in sun dresses, sharing tears, fears, and good times,
no plans. no cares. dark tans.
summer winds blow all throughout the three months, spreading joy and laughter, the air is clear and school is nowhere near."

Poem # 17

written: 12-26-10
title: "crazy puppy love."

"Crazy love.
its puppy love on steroids.
love.
its a strong word.
crazy.
it cant be tamed.
when you put the two words together its not good.
crazy love.
it'll hurt someone.
puppy love.
cant be taken seriously.
puppy.
cute, small, fluffy animal.
love.
its a very strong word.
when you put the two words together its not good.
crazy puppy love.
its dangerously dangerous to mess with.
it hurts people.
it hurt me."

- <3 xox

Friday, July 23, 2010

Poem #16

written: july 21, 2010
by: unknown
title: none

"staring at at the night sky trying hard not to cry. wishing i could truly have you sit right here talking with me. i was so dang lost until i found you. and then POOF! you magically appeared. years later growing apart always brings so much pain. suffering is hard, and being alone makes it harder and even worse. i tried wishing on one of those stars. the light must have burnt out because im still here hoping for the best but knowing its not going to change my course.


walking down the sidewalk i happen to stop and look at everyone around. i found couples and lovers and all of a sudden my foot hits the ground. i remember the way you used to look at me when we were tweens, i never know i could be so jealous of strangers. i watch them like i'm like im at the zoo in awe wishing it was me and you. but then my foot hits the ground.


the city lights are all around. no hiding from the brightest building. it's big and tall, the best one to shop at in the whole entire town. it's beautiful and makes me wonder how such a thing was made. i've always heard great reports from this store but never dared to enter through its doors. i open the clear glass to let myself through but its locked. i knock and knock but no answer. i look through the other windows and inside people are laughing at me and i'm being mocked. i guess the store doesn't have enought room for everyone to shop in. i hate to be out of season with my clothes but i guess it's time to take a hint. i should probably start shopping at target.


the stop lights. red.yellow.green.in our relationship, a few certain people had the courage to intervene. we were stuck in traffic and im honking the horn, but you don't seem to hear it! it's like a silent movie, words unspoken! i'm trying to tell you something bad is going on but the light turns green. i forget to go and i finally start to leave but then it changes to yellow. i leave at green but i cant find you. i lost you. i put my pedal to the metal but you proceed without me and went to fast. now my car is breaking down and i pull to the side of the road, the engine is busted. no hope for repairing and no money in the bank. i guess i'll have to walk home."

Friday, April 30, 2010

poem #15

written: sept. 8,2008
title: "i'm just quiet not shy"



"people say im shy,
but i'm not.
i'm just quiet.
people don't know i'm fine,
but i am. i'm just quiet.
they just don't know me,
people don't think i care,
but i do. i'm just quiet.
people think i think i'm too good for them,
i really don't. i'm just quiet.
it's not that hard to figure out,
people think i'm stuck up,
but i'm not.i'm just quiet.
people think i'm slow,
nope. i'm just quiet.
people think i'm dumb,
i don't think i am. i'm just quiet.
people think i don't have feelings,
your wrong. i'm just quiet.
you have no idea do you?
people think i don't have fun,
are you kidding me?!
i do! i'm just quiet.
people think i'm scared,
i'm not. i'm just quiet.
people think i'm depressed,
i'm not. i'm just quiet.
please don't look at me and judge right off the bat.
please don't think that i'm just a silent loner who doesn't care about anything,
because i care very much,
so, please understand that i do have friends and if you'd let me talk
with you, you'll find that we'll be friends too.
please know that i'm not slow, dumb or that i just don't care,
i have just as many feelings as you, and i can be just as fun and crazy as you.
i'm just quiet. yUp! thats me. ;) i'm just quiet NOT shy." please just be patient with me. i'll get there. lemme adjust. give me a chance, calm down please don't get frustrated.
wait for it..."


yeah, i used to be reeeeaaaalllllyyyy quiet! its getting better though, as i get older. :)

poem #14

written:??-??-??
title: "mom"



"you catch them when their fallin, you answer them when their callin
you can tell when they're lying, and you wipe their tears when they're crying,
your their teacher, friend and sometimes foe,
and when they're not acting themselves you're the first one to know,
you're a true role model as a friend and as a mom!"


this is for all you moms out there! :)

poem #13

written:??-??-??
title: "drown it out"


"i hear the words,
i hear the sentences,
i know the meanings,
i know they're bad,
so i drown it out.
i hear how they speak,
i see their lips move,
it s every other word,
i know they can do without,
so i drown it out.
i see their actions,
i hear them swear,
i see them talk without a care,
so i drown it out.
i pray for these kids everyday,
hoping that someday they'd say
"be quiet" or "your kind"
i can't imagine what goes through
their minds when they say those things,
those dark, evil, crude, meaningless things.
i just sit there and think these poor kids...
they need a solid rock on which to stand.
they all need a helping hand,
i just hope they'd understand,
that if they need love,
all they have to do is look up above,
and no they won't need to stare,
they just need to know that there is someone
there who does care!
hes the guy who made two a pair,
hes the big man upstairs,
i hope they'd just realize that God is there
for them without a doubt,
hes the guy i go to help me
drown it out."

poem #12

written: may 28,2008
title: "my best friend"

"when i fall down you come around to pick me up from the ground,
you know exactly what to do to turn my frown upside down,
and when i run out of hands you always have one to lend...
jordan
+
tori
=
friends 'til the end!!

"friends like you are far and few!"

"everyone needs a good laugh here and there and you always have a few to spare!"

"my friend is funny, kind, caring and smart.
she's cool, funky, fresh and true blue,
my friend, who is all this
its YOU!"

poem #11

written: march 18, 2008
title: "L.O.V.E"



"love,
i know its there,
somewhere.
love,
i know its around me,
but in who, and how far?
love,
i don't really know the real definition of it.
love,
i'm not feeling it now or did i yesterday.
love,
i'm waiting,
paciently, i'm waiting for...
love."

Thursday, April 29, 2010

poem #10

written: ??-??-2010
title: "ME."



"i hear you laughing and i wana join in,
i see you smiling and i wana smile too,
i watch you dancing around joyfully, and i wana dance too!
i keep seeing you everywhere and wana know why,
i heard we share the same interests and wana letchya know!
i wana see your work and show you mine,
i heard you were cool and funny,
and i know your quiet.
i know this girl who would love to meet you!
its me."

poem #9

written: feb. 21, 2010
title: "the bridge"



"i feel like i'm in a bright blue and purple bubble with nowhere to go.
nothing to do. except look to you.
my eyes are tearing up...
again...
and my ears are starting to plug.
the pressure is on.
i closed my eyes and i see him.
i yell his name.
he looks my way!
i tell him to come over!
he just stands there.
i yell his name again.
he smiles now.
i motion for him to come over,
he doesn't budge.
i yell his name one last time, this time i'm crying.
he turns his back on me.
and crosses the bridge.
now i stand alone. motionless. cold. sad. mad. alone.
i start to cross the bridge but i trip.
i start walking again.
i trip again.
i keep tripping on every crack on the bridge!
so, i give up on walking and begin to crawl...
i'm in the middle of the bridge now...
i look up and see him dancing his way down the path.
i frown.
the game is on!
i stand up again but this time i'm on my tip toes.
i'm walking over the cracks!
i'm being real careful not to touch the cracks with my big feet.
i'm still walking!!
i'm going really slow.
because i've learned that by going slow and being careful,
you won't fall and get hurt."

poem #8 (one of my favorites)

written: jan. 27, 2010
title: "don't"



" don't listen to their lies,
they'll only make you cry,
don't listen to thier words of anger,
they'll only make you hurt more,
don't follow the crowd and whats "hot" (at the moment) for they'll make you go crazy,
don't listen to them when they say "your not 'good' enough"
because there is no such thing,
don't hide your pain and tears,
for they will only make you die faster,
don't hold a grudge on someone you love,
because life is only so long,
don't listen to the "lost" or the "confused"
for you too will go down that dark road,
don't think yourself any less because of the things the "popular" girls say,
becuase you will hurt yourself even more,
don't smile if your deeply hurt and don't want to show it,
for your only hurting the ones who care the most about you.
and no matter what you do, say or think....
don't forget that i. love. you!"
<3 XoX

poem #7

written: jan. 27, 2010
title: "OK"



"i've got a weird, strange feeling,
i've got a feeling that everything is going to be
OK.
i've got a weird, content feeling,
i've got a feeling that everything is going to be
OK.
i've got a weird, wild feeling,
i've got a feeling that everything is going to be
OK.
i've got a feeling, its really weird.
but something hit me today, and that feeling told me that everything is going to be
OK."


See?! i told you it'll start to get better! haha

poem #6

written: jan. 23, 2010
title: "there is a friend..."



"there is a special friend that i can't stop thinking about,
i love them with all my heart,
and to me they are much more than just an aquantence,
they are somoeone i care alot about and would do anything for!
i loved seeing their face
it brightened up my days!
their smile could lighten up the darskest of rooms,
they're very funny and very kind,
and we used to laugh at everything even if it wasn't that funny.
i hope we stay, friends forever and ever!
so this is for you,
my very special friend,
whom i love very very much!" ;)

poem #5

written: jan. 14, 2010
title: "don't even try"


" don't even try to say my name,
dont even try to play that game,
don't even try to say that ya miss me,
and don't even try to kiss me!
i miss you sooo bad
and all the times we had!
im sure our memories will change
and our hearts will rearrange,
but for now its still so hard!
and if only you could see whats stirring inside of me!
don't even try to reach out your arms and say that your here when yous lies are so clear,
and don't even try to give me your heart
because you already tore it apart."


Again, i know! i know! i'm sooo sorry! but for some weird reason...i feel this annoying tugging feeling to share these. :p i've been trying to compress the feeling for a long time but the "tugging" just keeps coming back! haha

not to self~ i'm just going to give you guys the head up now. and that is, if you see the date in January...its probably going to be somewhat deep and kinda depressing...BUT PLEASE DO NOT STOP READING!!!....TRUST ME...it gets better!! :)))

poem #4

written: jan. 9, 2010
title: none


" im hanging,
my legs are frantically kicking,
my heart is beating 1,000 mphs,
my arms are sore,
my hands are cramping,
and my fingers are swollen and purple.
i'm yelling. i'm screaming.
i wana call your name but i'm afraid you want to come.
i want you to be the one to save me, but your too busy.
you've moved on.
i'm crying. i'm sweating.
while i'm hanging i cant help but think about that one thing.
that one thing is tattooed onto my heart.
i don't wana be apart.
please. come.please, before the pain starts.
i want your hand to be there to pull me up. i want your arms to be the ones i go to.
i only feel secure when im in your strong grip. i miss your hugs.
i. miss. you."


OK, i know what your probably thinking. "dude! thats deeeepressssing!!" yeah! yeah! i know! haha while i'm typing this i can't believe what i was thinking! :p i don't even remember why i wrote this. well, i lied. i do know WHY. lets just put it this way....i'm a teenage girl, who HAD a boyfriend, then i moved. but i'm all better now! :) i am happy now! hahaha "its all good!"

poem #3

written: 6-6-06
title: "poem"


"i call, but you don't hear me.
i cry, but you don't care.
i yell and you tell me to be quiet.
i'm worried, you say get over it.
i try to show you something, but you just ignore it."

poem #2

written: ??-??-05
Title: "friends are"


"friends are like string cheese,
they are fun to tease,
and sometimes do what you please.
friends are like string cheese.

friends are like scissors and glue,
they are always there to help you,
they sometimes tell you what to do,
friends are like scissors and glue.

friends are like air in a balloon,
they will go with you to the moon,
if your grounded they'll stay in your room,
friends are like air in a balloon.

friends are like food on your plate,
they can be really great,
they can fit in a crate,
friends are like food on your plate.

friends come in different shapes,
they can come in different colors, red, white, yellow or black,
they can be a boy or a girl,
it really doesn't matter what color you are or how tall you are.
just as long as you have someone to laugh and smile with.
now, that's a true friend.
friends are different."

poem #1

written: 4-20-05
Title: "its because of you"


"its because of you that my frown turned upside down,
its because of you that my eyes opened to see things,
its because of you that i have a true friend now,
its because of you that you had taught me how,
its because of you that i understand things,
its because of you that my days are brighter,
its because of you that i feel good about myself,
its because of you that i have stuff to do...now,
its because of you that makes me laugh,
its because of you that makes me smile,
its because of you that im not lonely,
and its because of you who made me who i am now."

"we are the BODY" (song #1)

ok, this first song is actually not one i've written. (some of the songs i just really like!) there are also some songs that i added "my thoughts" on. basically telling what i think the song means. so here it goes!


"if we are the body...
why aren't our arms REACHING,
why aren't our hands HEALING,
why aren't our words TEACHING,
and if we are the body..
why aren't our feet GOING,
why is our love NOT SHOWING?"

*my thoughts*
basically, God loves EVERYONE.
Jesus paid for EVERYONE.
"Jesus paid much to write a price for us to pick and choose who should come. and we are the BODY of Christ."

"love your neighbors as yourself"
"treat don't tease"

ready?!...Set?!....GO!!!

Hey! my name is Tori! i'm 16 years old (going on 17 soon) i'm very into the arts and using my gifts! i'm a Jesus Freak! I enjoy writing, writing songs, writing poems, and...oh, did i mention i like to write?? haha writing and music are my two "loves"! (aka) they are the two things that i catch myself doing the most! i currently have a "L I F E" blog, that simply is a bunch of randomness that goes on in my roller coaster of a life. i have a photography blog and now i have a song/poem blog! i was thinking about making two totally different blogs for each but simplicity is my middle name! ;) so, i hope you all grow to enjoy this blog just the same as my other two!!!

<3


p.s. oh yeah! keep in mind....some of my songs are really old and some may not make any sense whatsoever! haha but i'm going to post them anyway! :) same goes for my poems!